When I was a kid I always wanted to grow up quickly and would wait desperately to get promoted to the next class so that I could feel all grown up! But every time I got promoted my hunger for growing up would not stop and I would wish to grow one more class. Because I thought a grown up got more advantages and was capable of doing a lot of things that I could not do like going alone to the market!

Sigh! How have things changed now. Every year on my birthday I now wish to hold time and don’t feel like growing up. I want to hold on to the last year because I don't feel old; I don't feel like I am 26. Because when I was a kid 26 WAS HUGE! We as kids would talk amongst ourselves "vo didi/bhaiya 24 years k hain" and then everybody would give expressions of shock and say "haww"!! 

Unlike what I used to think as a kid I know now for sure that the younger you are, more capable you are of doing things that older people can't. Look how I call myself old!

I guess I am not old enough yet to be called old but the feeling that slowly I am moving towards the dreadful 30-35 age group. I can hear my heart shout at this thought.

This is the last job where I was introduced as a "fresh" graduate in office, from now theyears are only going to get added up. This is probably also the last time when my manager introduced me to my team as "meet this young girl", "she has a fresh mind", as if after this my mind is going to become stale or something!

When I look back I am more particular about cleanliness now, I like things more planned and thought out, I understand life much more clearly, I am less careless and more mature. Though I still love adventure, fun trips, love to spend time with friends, love to make silly decisions, love to drink and spend every penny of my salary every month.

Maybe I am freaking out but this is how I feel all the time now and it is hard to make out whether I am growing up or growing old!

Well, I believe growing old is something that I cannot avoid and nature will follow its own course no matter how much I would like it to slow down. However, growing up is something which is in my control and I am going to say this quote to myself each day "I want to stay young and beautiful"! So that I feel young, beautiful and vibrant :)